Monday, January 29, 2018

Close my eyes and sleep forever

Every time I close my eyes
terror grips my heart
Will my memories
leave me forever
while I am sleeping?
Names and words, time and places,
come and go,
and I can't control my thoughts or my words.

The one thing that stays in my head
haunts me.
It's a question.
And I know the answer
and knowing the answer makes me so tired.
Because I don't want to get there
even though I know I am close.
What is the point of living
when the voices all sound the same
and you don't recognize the face
of the person who is holding your hand?