Will I Ever

Raw, unfiltered, unedited. Getting close to another landmark birthday and I seem to be reflecting more than usual. Dark. Negative. Not so confident. Not so secure. Just thinking, maybe a little too much and a little too deeply and a little too sad. Which, of course, gets my creativity going.

Will I ever meet a man

  who wants to hold me,

  maybe even kiss me,

  more than once.

  Maybe even fall in love with me.

Will I ever meet a man

  who I want to be with

  for the rest of my life,

  or at least several times a week

  for as many weeks as possible,

Will I ever meet a man

  and not feel awkward,

  and not feel socially inept or inadequate,

  and not feel like the chance that he wants to be involved with me

  is slim to none.

Will I ever meet a man

  Who I really hope will call me

    and he does.

  Who I really want to hang out with

    and we do.

  Who feels like my soul mate

   and he is.