Sunday, October 29, 2023

Farewell (when will it end)

 I'm not sure this is done, but I needed to let it out.

Tears

enough to fill a river flowing to the sea.

Tears

of grief and fear.

Will the crying ever end?


Farewell,

the harvest moon turns from orange to white

Farewell

I picture your dancing shadow 

  in the moonlight.


Rage,

bullets and bombs

Rage,

smoke can't muffle the screams

of people caught in the middle.


Praying

  for the dead

Praying 

  for the wounded

Praying

  it will end

Praying 

  the world will not

  have to weep again.


Young, old

an ordinary day

Shredded by shrapnel.

they fall.

 

Cowards giving orders

Cheering for death,

Retaliation and revenge

Over and over again.


Tears

  Farewells

Tears

  Prayers

Tears

  Rage

Tears.


The sun sets

The moon rises

Life goes on as usual

Everywhere but there.




Sunday, October 15, 2023

These Times

I'm not sure where this one will go once I start editing, but here is the raw unedited version.

Fear and resignation

It gets worse each time

More extreme

More dangerous

More, more, more

When will it blow us up


Oblivion and rebuttal

Retreated into cocoons

Too many, 

Too late,

Too fearful or tired

To speak up.


They cry every day

About the safety of loved ones

who are forced to choose

Love of country

Love of family

Love of life.

Love or hate.


Everyone sees the same sun

Sees the same moon,

See stars and constellations at night.

Some see smoke and ash

Hear sirens and bombs

Hide in safe rooms

Flee in fear hoping to return

Home.


Fear and resignation

Disappointment and hope

Prayers and guns.

Pray for peace

Pray the war will be short

Pray their side will be victorious.

Can both sides win?




Truth

I saw a poem by Rumi entitled "The truth within us", and a couple of poems tumbled out of my fingers and onto the screen.

Truth
1.

The truth is within us,

I read that

in a poem.

The truth is within you,

I've seen that too.

Interpret both however you want

Religiously,

Spiritually,

Literally.


The truth will set you free.

The truth is in your heart.

Buy the truth and don't sell it.

Gospel, Psalm, Proverb.

Mercy and truth.

Truth and compassion.


Truth, 

facts proven true.

By who?


2.

Her words were like poetry,

Free form phrases

Occasionally rhyming,

Words in rhythm,

An outlet,

An invitation,

Her truth.





Sunday, July 2, 2023

Gentle Giant

 Listening to jazz guitar, sipping coffee, enjoying the music and people watching.

Dad is sitting at the table

  faded orange ballcap

  a red beaded necklace around his thick neck

  a pair of kids sunglasses hooked onto the front of

  his army green t-shirt.

He's a big guy,

  towers over everyone when he stands

  to get his daughter a straw for her milk.

She's wearing a navy dress with a white bow

  and a red white and blue crown on her head,

  a rainbow face painted on her cheek.

He gets up again to get glasses of water for the kids and grandpa.

Big brother has a spider on his cheek

  and a red beaded necklace on his neck,

  He also has Dad's nose and eyes.

Mom and Grandma are at the counter ordering.

Dad goes to check on them,

He nods,

  returns to the table with more glasses of water.

A gentle giant

An ordinary life.


Friday, June 9, 2023

Only One Here

Working 9-4 at a small college library, during summer, can be a solitary job.

I'm the only one here

I can hear water dripping in the fish tank

on the other side of the room.

It's a big room.

It used to be filled with thousands of books

on metal shelves.

Now there are six square tables, 

One large round table

  with a well-used power strip in the middle,

Brown faux leather couches near the windows,

Plants on ledges.

The water noise keeps me company

as I sit

trying to think of something to do.

I hear a door close

in the hall,

probably someone coming in to use the restroom.

If they want to refill a water bottle,

I'll have company

for a minute or two.

I swear there's a hum,

Is it in my head

or is it coming from the HVAC system or lights?

I feel like the library queen,

Perched on my chair,

Looking out at the vastness..

Across from my perch at the desk,

A sign in a cracked plastic holder,

"Book Sale 2 for $1,"

We rarely sell any

of the outdated textbooks

and class related materials.

Maybe they were read once upon a time,

Now, they gather dust,

their spines lean on each other

and stare at me

every minute I am at the circulation desk,

which is around 55 minutes of each hour,

Except for when I pulled half a dozen books in the morning

and placed them in the red bin

for transit to other libraries

that perhaps are more busy than mine.

Time to make my hourly rounds

check the empty study rooms,

maybe push in a chair,

walk up the stairs,

  even the lizards are absent today,

walk through the stacks,

check that the A/V equipment room is still looked,

come back down,

maybe step outside for a minute to

feel the sun,

then back inside,

just in case the phone rings

or someone comes in,

Maybe I'll check the book drop,

even though I checked it three hours ago,

It was empty then,

just like it was empty yesterday

and the other days I checked it.

Working alone is okay,

but it's easier

when there are people in the building

and I can feel some of their energy.

Alone, in the building,

I feel my energy wane

and look for ways to recharge.

Until…

Two instructors come back,

their office is being recarpeted

so they're working from here.

And then a student comes in.

and then another.

Hooray,

I am not alone.

Except the students leave within fifteen minutes.

So it is just 

two instructors using computers

in the quiet room,

And me making the rounds more often than necessary

so my feet don't cramp

on the rim

of the black chair

I wiped down when I got here

because it is a hair and dust magnet.

I'm not the only one here

but it is quiet,

I'm thankful that the battery operated clock

was taken down

and the battery not replaced.

The echo of ticking

would not be as

easy to listen to

as the melodic drip of water

in the fish tank.

Oh, did I mention that the student who cleans the tank

came in, 

talking on his phone,

did his job,

and left?