Monday, December 28, 2020

2020 The Year that was

 This is a work in progress, I think. It switches person from singular (I) to plural (we) and back. I stayed within first person, but conventional wisdom says not to swicth between the two. Maybe I'll change it, maybe I won't. 2020 wasn't conventional so why should my response to it be expected to follow the grammatical norms?


This was the year that was.

We can’t wait for it to end.

We tell ourselves that the world we wake up to on January 1st 

will be different than the world we left behind on December 31st.

Probably not.

2020 was a year of confusion, pain, and suffering

A year of division and mistrust

A year of name calling and polarization

2020 was the year that prejudices refused to be kept hidden

Words didn’t remain unsaid

We couldn’t take it anymore.

Lost lives, lost friendships, lost jobs, lost way of life.

Driven away and replaced by 

worry, despair, and fear.

The end of the year is always a time to reflect.

This year, I think about

Pain and turmoil,

Grieving the loss of life as I knew it,

Craving a softer, quieter year.

Craving an end to the madness,

Thinking of the future.

Knowing that the madness of 2020 will haunt my dreams

For years to come.

Knowing that the doubts and hatred that bubbled to the surface in 2020

Will not magically go away on January 1, 2021.

The end of the year is usually a time to

Count blessings and be grateful for what you have.

Amid the loss, solitude, and sheltering in place,

Where is the soothing touch

That makes you feel all right even when you’re not.

Where are the comforting words and hugs

That help you ease out of the trauma and forward to a happier time.

We’re told to think about what we have, not what we have lost.

I still have my dreams

I still miss family and friends and the closeness of humanity.

Will this last forever

or is it like a storm we weather and then recover from,

Rebuild the broken buildings and lives,

And look back in wonder,

At how far we have come.


The year that was


The year that will be.

I'm going forward with 

Strength, compassion, and an open mind. 

and hoping that will be enough.